oh.

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 18:11:21 GMT

i think i hate him more than i hate myself for living with him.

looks like i'm moving.

brandy on the rocks got a brother feelin nice.

Tue, 24 May 2005 21:19:51 GMT

this was the worst week of my life.

i do this every year.

Sun, 15 May 2005 07:13:45 GMT

www.colorgenics.com

You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.

You 'need to be needed'. As an idealist you are intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to you. If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a 'trier' and indications are that you will, as indeed you have in the past, 'bounce back'.

Thu, 12 May 2005 15:42:26 GMT

i went to puerto rico.
but i'm back now.

all kinds of things happened.

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 15:39:37 GMT

Your Linguistic Profile:

50% General American English

35% Yankee

15% Dixie

0% Midwestern

0% Upper Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

questionably the worst night of my life?

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 07:13:51 GMT

so i worked a 13 hour shift today from 12pm to 1am and barely broke $100 bucks.
a bunch of little kids paid me in dimes.
they switched my venue 5 times. so i could never hold on to a section.
i hate my job and i think i'll blow it up.
but first..
i'll take all of the money.
and liquor.
because i think those are the two unliving objects that i most like to have in my grip.

things are looking up though as i am driving out to dirty jerz tomorrow evening to see my mom for easter. im not sure why i even made a big deal out of it i'm pretty certain we've never really celebrated the holiday beyond the exchange of junkfood.

i think i just REALLY need to get into that hot tub. even though im really looking forward to seeing my mom since its been a couple months. and my dogs. and get the giant floor-sized pile of laundry anthony and i have accumulated done.

i think i'll end this here.
goodnight

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 19:21:50 GMT

i happen to think these haiku things are really funny so i am going to put a bunch in here right now

sorry about that.

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 20:03:29 GMT

IM SICK. and i if i could remember the html code that makes the font bigger that statement would have been at least 72points.

what for?

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 19:36:37 GMT

it's quite possible that by the end of this week i will be dead. or close to it.

i'll be seeing you.

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 19:13:13 GMT

so i've been looking forward to seeing the notebook since i saw the commercial for it on tv the other day. the commercial didnt say much but i could tell i was going to like it. so coincidentally i went to christinas house last night and her roomates and just gone out to pick it up. and we all sat in the room and cried our eyes out consistently throughout the whole movie. it was by far the best love story ive ever seen. and its not even the plot that got me it was just something about the acting. anyway needless to say im buying it.

other than that i have nothing of any importance to talk about. im just here because i cant stand having to actually sit through a typography class.

not happy.

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 05:43:54 GMT

alright it's about 12:30 on wednesday night. i had a good day today but i realized that i dont have very much money in the bank at the moment..about 500. so it bummed me out because i have been going out alot and spending alot of money on useless things and drinks and whatnot--and going out to eat all the time. but its so frustrating because i really dont have much time to do anything. like i want to cook at home and things like that but i usually go straight from school to work and dont come back until the early morning..and then end up eating some crap from 711 or something when i get home..which is really bad for you. ive also been forgetting to do important things because im too preoccupied with whatever else im doing. like today i was supposed to go drop off prescriptions to cvs and pick up my laundry but i was hanging out with christina and anthony all night after school and completely forgot. i did have a really good time though the past few days. the girls awesome. megan came over yesterday too-i havent seen her in so long so it was nice to catch up with her.
work has been so terrible. i made 10 dollars the other night for 6 hours of work...i was scheduled for later but i told my managers how rediculous it was so they let me go home. anyway the whole basis of this entry is just to say that from now on im not going to be so preoccupied with going out and whatnot and try to catch up on the shit i need to do. i feel like im like on the track to really fucking up between work and school and my health in general so thats going to be that. im quitting smoking after this pack ive got. im tired of waking up in the morning feeling like my chest is going to cave in. its not even as if im addicted to them anyway.

i was supposed to go to the crazy donkey on friday with christina but now i dont think im going to go. i hope she doesnt mind but it just seems like the right thing to do. im also going to try to not have so many people over my house at once anymore..of course i have no objections to people coming by now and then but i dont think i should have so many at once or be up as late anymore. i seriously dont even sleep anymore and i can never seem to get to class on time.

i guess i'll end this rant here. ive got my period too so i bet thats whats making me so bummed out. Anthonys also going to florida for a week on friday so thats kind of depressing me too, weve been getting along pretty well lately and im going to miss him alot. hopefully what i can look forward to is becoming a new and improved christi who can equally balance her social life and responsibilities again.

things.

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 19:01:23 GMT

ummmmmmmmmmmmmm ok. ok.
2 days ago was aidans 2nd birthday party which was very pleasant. despite the fact that i spent a total of 36 dollars between liquor and pot and didnt wind up getting all that messed up. although thats probably for the better.

p.s. my martinis are fucking delicious and you love them.

last night after work christina came over so we could make smores in the fireplace but we bought soggy wood. so they came out tasting of lighter fluid and solid kerosene. oh and they were smores poptarts because 711 didnt have graham crackers. we put them in the toaster.

lisa drew and ryan came over also. i think my apartment is like becoming way too much of a hangout lately. not that i havent been enjoying it..i just hope my landlord doesnt mind.

oh and i think i have a UTI. i abbreviate because its gross.

that is all. goodbye.

GIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 08:39:30 GMT

ok you heard it first this girl has got the interweb. since the dsl problem we had during the first few months we were here we havent bothered to get it. its 56k...but its surprisingly quick. so expect to see me around, live and nocturnal.

i've got this new inexplicable obsession with head automatica. i cant stop listening to it no matter what i do. its becoming a serious issue.

i went to shenanigans again yesterday. the place is most definitely growing on me. i should probably cool off a little bit on the drinking ive been doing. i consider it a short hiatus to celebrate the excellent grades i somehow managed to earn at school. besides one B+ i had all A's. i dont think thats half bad for a girl working full time and supporting herself. so i think i deserve a little fun. other than this nothing much has been going on. im not sure how i feel about my new professors..work has been PAINFULLY slow..to the point where i don't even want to attempt to make money. um um um. im thinking of going to rent-a-center to look for a new couch...i cant stand this futon anymore its seriously breaking to pieces. the place is looking pretty good regardless of it so im happy about that.

alright fortunately for whoever is so burdened to have had to read this entry, its 3:35 and i suppose i should be in bed. goodnight.

i dont think it's stupid

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 08:24:26 GMT

ok so recently somebody told me that they think surveys are stupid so i think im going to post the one i planned on putting in my last entry. its stolen from megan.

how many of your friends have committed suicide? none. i have fairly happy friends.

would you fuck someone in a cemetary? i dont think i'll even go into a cemetary thanks.b

who is your favorite villian? that guy i saw in the diner with the supervillain shirt.

do you think the columbine killers were homosexuals? either way their lives are over.

pesci or devito? not into it.

are you gay? not yet.

do you ever punch yourself? i have. but not regularly.

what do you think of dudes in white belts? i think they should stop being so concerned with their belt color and stick to something basic unless theyve got some accessorizing strategy.

have you ever killed an animal? i had a hamster that decapitated himself in the window..i didnt find out until my mom told me roughly 10 years later.

are you irish? yes.

who would you punch if you could? this guy that tried to lick my ass at work the other day. and then proceded to try and back his naked butt into mine.

do you smoke pot brrrraaah? yes.

what do you think of hot dogs? no preference?

whats your favorite christmas song? the one by Paul Mcartney

what is your favorite smell? Burberry London. and Cedar.

what do you prefer to drink in the morning? cold water.

would you go to sf or nyc right now if you had the chance? id go to las vegas.

do you know anyone named Dewey? no thank goodness.

whats your favorite college football team? not applicable.

does your little brother listen to reggie and the full effect? no. i remember he liked them though when i would play it.

do you do pushups? haha, i can. but i dont.

do you ever fantasize about murder? no thats a terrible question.

would you fuck victoria gotti if you could? no but id like her money please.

who is your favorite artist right now? my boyfriend.

have you ever done ecstasy? yes.

are you straightedge? obviously not.

are you vegan? never.

do you shoplift? i used to. but not anymore.

do you ski or snowboard? ive never snowboarded so i guess i have to say i ski. even though i dont.

what do you think of mustaches? theyre creepy.

do you use hair gel? not usually.

do you sniff cocaine? no sir.

who is your favorite serial killer? i dont like serial killers actually.

do you wear robes? often.

do you believe in bigfoot? no.

sleep in pajamas, underwear or naked? depends. usually naked or underwear. unless its cold.

do you like to rodeo style your partner? it's ok.

have you ever made out with your friends bf or gf? no.

have you ever been caught mid-hump? sort of.

have you been shot? shot at...

have you ever been hospitalized? i recently stepped backwards on a needle and went to the hospital it was terrible.

do you like painkillers? not if theyre strong. i dont like feeling all corpsed..

what is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? i dont think ive ever lured anybody.

have you ever lubed up your genitals with soy milk? YES.

do you own a knife? yes.

have you played ghettopoly? no but it sounds amazing.

have you ever bought drugs in the "ghetto" or "hood" of your city? hahahhaha yeah.

do you like oprah? i dont hate oprah...

do you want to fuck the person that filled this out before you? haha how awkward.

do you have a.d.d.? no i think its over-diagnosed.

have you ever had a head injury? nothing major.

how many virgins have u slept with? none.

do you love the pain a tattoo brings? i wouldnt know i havent got one.

white or black? depends.

hoodies or no hoodies? this is the most rediculous question.

that was really bad - im sorry. thankfully i dont think too many people read this.
to sum things up.

hi.
it's christmas eve and ive just driven to new jersey to see my mom for christmas.
i'd like some money please.
and i am missing many people.
goodbye.

strange.

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 10:01:10 GMT

ok so its about 5am and i find myself awake at brittanys house. anthony went away for christmas and i dont like sleeping alone in my apartment. ive been trying to get more comfortable w/ the idea but i always wind up staying here. yesterday, for instance, i came over with all intentions of going home, but i ended up smoking a joint w/ brittany and playing video games for a while, and then that white noise commercial came on and freaked me out. and today i was planning on going to some bar w/ some people from work but decided not to because it would have been so late by the time we went and i prefer to wait an hour or two after im already sobered up to drive home. just to make sure. so i wouldnt have gotten home until, well, about now. but atleast right now im relaxed and settled in. anyway...i came over here and shannon was over playing silent hill with brittany. so that game freaked me out a little. and fallon came over and we ended up reminiscing about just about everything. its so funny when youve got so much to say and so little of it comes out. we started talking about wicca and things like that and eventually creeped me out again so sooner or later it was 4 o clock and they left and i decided to sleep here. and then i decided to go on the computer cause i havent been on aim in decades. i also miss a few people and hoped they were on, although sadly they werent.

other than this not much has happened. i am absolutely hating my job. i absolutely love money and have so little of it. the amount of dishes i have in my sink is proposterous. i got excellent grades, somehow. considering i have absolutely no time to do schoolwork. anthony and i have been at eachothers throats, but this vacation hes on seems like it might repair those kinks. i just remembered i was going to do a survey but i think i've written too much for that now. so i think this will be all i write. goodnight.

wack.

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 14:35:46 GMT

alright its way too early in the a.m and i am at briarcliffe waiting for my professor to arrive. again. and i ALWAYS try to make sure to get here on time so that i can make a good impression. (he could potentially get me an internship)...(even though i've never spoken to him about it).....(and hes probably not going to give one out anyway)....

well, nontheless, he is never fucking here on time. and when he is, that's the day i'm late. so i woke up extra early today out of guilt for the fact that i didnt go last week....and he is about a half hour late. even though class was originally scheduled to begin at 8am. He corrected that small problem at the beginning of the semester, since none of us seemed to function that early.

other than this not much has gone on...

i've been smoking wayyyyy too much. and working wayyyyy too much.
i hate my job so badly.
nicole said she might be able to get me a waitressing job at her uncles fancy pants restaraunt in babylon. and i'm considering it. cause i absolutely can't stand this corporate garbage jobs anymore. nobody cares about anybody and everyones just trying to get home BEFORE YOU. they sent this girl home the other day cause she was hung over...but she brought in a bottle of antibiotic and that somehow convinced them that she was sick enough to go home. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MANY ANTIBIOTICS IVE HAD IN MY CABINET?! if i would have known thats all i need to get out of work i would have done it ages ago.

hold on, were scamming our teacher by breaking up our homework lessons and putting them on a disk for everyone to share.

wups now he's here.
bai.

excuse me..

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 18:21:36 GMT

hey so yeah its been a while since i wrote in this. probably because my internet at home was terrible and i had to get rid of it. i thought i had a 1:30 class today but turns out i confused it with tomorrows class and don't have to be here for another half hour. so i went and stole a survey from megan which i will fill out at the end of my entry because i have absolutely nothing else to do in this school.

i went out to the dirty jerz this weekend to watch my dogs for my mom. the new puppy she got is now big enough to not be considered a puppy but is still high-strung enough to drive me off the wall. therefore making her less adorable. only puppies can be high-strung without aggrivating me. plus she knows how to jump up onto the bed now..so she kept anthony and i up all night. the next day we drove out to purchase because ryan somehow found a practice space in the music building for their band. i dont usually like to sit in on any of that but i thought it would be fun to go out there and hang out w/ everyone. and it was. apparently my ex-boyfriend, if you can even call him that, attends the school now. and im thanking my lucky stars i didn't run into him. its not as if theres any real hostility between us, i just try to avoid those kinds of situations. anyway it was nice to be out there again. i missed the campus alot..i just dont miss the classroom experience there. i think ill be up there alot more in the future.

also i watched a possible/probable drunk driver speed 80+ miles per hour toward a truck on the cross island, stop short, lose control of his vehicle, crash into the side barrier, and keep going. ryan called the police but they took too long and he got off at the racetrack.

ok so it's survey time now i guess.
x\\ spell your name backwards: itsirhc
x\\ have you ever had a song written about you: no i dont think so.
x\\ what song makes you cry: stand by me..tears from heaven.
x\\ what song makes you happy: anything by project pat.
x\\ what's your all time fav. song?: oh geeze..
x\\ what do you listen to before you go to sleep: the television.
x\\ height: 5'
x\\ hair color: brown.
x\\ piercings: nose and ears.
x\\ tattoos: gratefully, none.
Right Now . . .
x\\ what color pants are you wearing: im not wearing pants.
x\\ what song are you listening to: someone from my class is playing rap across the room. i dont know what song it is.
x\\ what taste is in your mouth?: tobacco, gingerale.
x\\ whats the weather like?: hazy.
x\\ how are you?: eh. tired..and a little aggrivated.
x\\ get motion sickness?: yeah. i can't be in anything that spins.
x\\ have a bad habit?: a few.
x\\ get along with your parents?: usually. as long as i don't live with them.
x\\ have a current crush: no.
x\\ have a big regret: nothing too serious.
Favorite . . .
x\\ tv show: nip tuck.
x\\ conditioner: the little loreal tube that came with my hair dye.
x\\ book: celestine prophecy.
x\\ non alchohol drink: water.
x\\ alchohol drink: southern martini.
x\\ things to do on the weekend: anything.
Have You Ever . . .
x\\ broken the law: yes.
x\\ ran away from home: i was always kicked out.
x\\ snuck out of the house: never. i was usually allowed out. and if i wasnt i probably fucked up pretty bad and accepted the punishment.
x\\ ever gone skinny dipping: yes.
x\\ made a prank phone call: not since like the 6th grade.
x\\ tipped over a portapotty: no?
x\\ use your parents credit card: yeah.
x\\ skipped school before: yes.
x\\ fell asleep in the shower/bath: often.
x\\ been in a school play: i was supposed to and then i got kicked out of my elementary school for moving without telling them.
x\\ had a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes.
x\\ had children: no no no no
x\\ been in love: yes
x\\ have a hard time getting over someone: yes.
x\\ been hurt?: frequently.
x\\ gone out with someone you only knew for 3 days: ? i dont think i have.
Random . . .
x\\ have a job: haha no.
x\\ your cd player has what in it right now: im not sure i havent used it in a long time.
x\\ if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: i dont know. red i guess.
x\\ what makes you happy?: friends. conversation.
x\\ the next CD you're going to buy: i dont usually buy them.
When/What Was the Last . . .
x\\ you got a real letter: 2 years ago.
x\\ got an email: yesterday.
x\\ thing you purchased: this gingerale ive got.
x\\ Tv program you watched: i think i was watching jackass on lisas tv in purchase.
x\\ movie you saw in the theaters: napolean dynamite. which i really didnt like.
x\\ kissed: this morning.
x\\ hugged: last night.
x\\ song heard: i dont remember. i think one of the songs bobbys friends band played last night.
x\\ place you were [ besides home ]: purchase.
x\\ phonecall: anthony before i left.
x\\ you were depressed: i still am. i dont like not working.
x\\ you were in the hospital: haha wednesday. i stepped on a sewing needle and it went backwards all the way into my foot and i had to have it cut out.
When/What Comes to Mind When You Hear . . .
x\\ car: pool
x\\ murder: i dont really hear it often.
x\\ cape: cod
x\\ penis: vagina
x\\ cellular device: bills
x\\ shoe: feet
x\\ fun: funny
x\\ crush: boy
x\\ music: overrated
x\\ chalk: dust
(x) - you've done
(_) - you haven't done
(x) been drunk
(x) smoked pot
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(_) had anal sex
(x) been in love
(_) had sex
(_) had sex in public
(_) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(_) had a threesome
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(_) been tied up (sexually)
(_) been caught masturbating
(x) pissed on myself
(_) had sex with a member of the same sex
(_) been arrested
(_) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(_) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(x) cut myself on purpose
(_) had sex at the office
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(_) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(x) tasted my own sexual fluids
(_) fucked one of my Live journal friends
(x) Slapped someone I loved
(x) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(_) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Have been fisted and/or fisted someone else
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(X) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been snowboarding
(_) Had sex at a friend's house when they were throwing a party
(x) Given Oral Sex
(x) Met someone in person from the interweb
(x) Watched two (or more) people have sex (not porn, real life)
(_) Been moshing at a concert
The Basics
What is your full name: Christi Marie Maksymkow
How old are you: 19
What is your date of birth: 5-7-85
Are you in school now: yeah.
If so, what grade are you in: sophomore.
How many sisters do you have: 0
How many brothers do you have: 1
Are your parents still together: nope
Do you like your parents: usually.
Do you like to go places with your family: no
Do you have any pets: no.
If you do tell us a little about them: no
How did you come across this survey: megans journal
What time is it right now: 2:13 and class is starting.
About your friends
How many friends do you have right now: a few.
How many good friends do you have: no more than 3
Do you have a best friend: yes.
Who is your smartest friend: its not nice to answer these.
Who is your dumbest friend:
Who is that friend that is really smart but acts like a dumbass:
Who is your hottest friend:
Do you have more guy-friends or girl-friends: its probably about even.
Would you ever fuck one of your friends: no
What is your favorite...
thing to do on the weekend: wait i think i answered this.
food: chinese. even though im so sick of it right now.
drink: water
thing to do in a bathroom: piss and shit? and shower.
thing to do in the shower: shave.
snack: saltines.
animal: kittens.
tv channel: fx
website: i dont really have one.
About Online Journals
Do you have an online journal: no.
Do you have more then one online journal: no.
How many online Journals do you have: no.
What service do you use (livejournal,myownjournal,ect.): livejournal
Will you post this survey in your journal: i am..
How often do you post in your online journal: rarely
Do you like posting in your online journal: only when interesting things happen. OH i have to put something else in my entry now.
Do you tell the truth in your journal or do you BS a lot: i tell the truth.
do you tell everyone that your a buff jock when you are really a nerd: im a buff jock.
Tell the truth now you bitch
Are you a dork: yes.
Are you a virgin: yes.
Do you smoke: yes.
Do you use drugs: not often.
Do you drink: sometimes
Are you drunk right now: no.
Are you a christian: no.
Now that you have finished this survey how do you feel: ..

big news.

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 19:47:44 GMT

ok so i get my modem in a week or two so i might actually update my poor neglected journal a little more often from that point on.

ive got a house phone finally because my mom took the jump and called them up for me. i hate doing all that shit. but atleast i dont have to stand outside to make calls anymore. verizon told me i owed 2000 dollars to them on my old phone number which was really funny because even though my moms phone has been under my name since i was about 4 or 5...we never used their company. so eat that, verizon.

i start briarcliffe on the seventh. im definitely not crazy about that.

my dad flew out from iowa on thursday and has been staying at my place. which is really fun and weird. his plane was delayed so they gave everyone free mini bottles of liquor. he put the tiny bacardi silver away in my freezer and i hope to god he forgets it there.

other than that all is well i guess. im starting to really hate my job. that i actually have to leave for in about a half hour. i worked over 50 hours in seven days but because it happened in the middle of two pay periods im not getting overtime for it. and were getting a new computer system so i had to come in on my only day off to take a class on it.

i think thats all the news for now.

Fri, 16 Jul 2004 03:37:24 GMT

i wrote this big entry and accidentally cancelled the window so whatever. i dont think i want to write anymore. i need a vicodin cause my arm is spazzing out again. i feel like i have arthritis but it can't be that. things arent going all that well but i dont really want to get into it right now. theres alot i feel like i should write about since i so rarely get on a computer but i dont think i will right now. i guess its just impulse to write in here.

anyway
thats it i guess.

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 09:45:38 GMT

hey its like 5:30 or so. i forgot how early the sun comes up in the summer. its to the point where im questioning whether or not i should actually sleep or i should just stay up. or whether or now i will actually be able to fall asleep.

im a little drunk. just coming out of it i think. i was at home but had some silly blowout with anythony because he doesnt even know what he thinks anymore. he just says one thing and does another and it's aggrivating. hes also been a big dick. so i came to brittanys and had a few. which reminds me that mike left with my bass in his backseat. good times.

uhm other than this i dont know whats going on. ive been working alot of unrequested overtime that im not psyched about. im making about $450 - $500 a week because of it but still not psyched.

ive still got to finish registering for briarcliffe but they need all this information that i just fucking dont know where it is. and that overwhelms me. just fucking..give me a schedule for christs sake and lets get over all this other shit. your schools a joke anyway.

im supposed to be going to the beach..tomorrow or today or whatever it is. but since im in this little fight i think i might be driving out to montauk with brent to take some photograph of some building for some drawing he has to make. but this is negotiable depending on what happens when the boy wakes up by himself and realizes i actually did leave.

ummm alright i guess ill go. i feel like i should be spending more time on this computer..because the time i actually have access to a computer is so precious. my laundromat has free internet but last time i was there they keyboard wouldnt work and the miserable asshole working there wouldnt fix it. the conversation went like so.

"does this keyboard work?"
"i don't know, does it?"
"uh, well, its not right now"
"well i dont know what to tell you."
::walks away all grumpy and whatnot.::

ok all done.

oh my goodness

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 04:32:46 GMT

i havent been on a computer in so long. too much has happened to even remember let alone document in a journal entry. what i CAN say is that i peed on the floor in a mcdonalds parking lot in the bronx off of I95 while driving to nj tonight. cause i had to go so bad. and there was traffic. so i was like fuck it until i got into the bronx and said welllll i dont really want to get out of my car. so i pulled into the corner parking spot and peed in front of my car pretending to check my tire. and then i left.

also.

were mostly settled into the new apartment. were just waiting on some furniture. and a few little things need to be unpacked. and we still need to paint. haha. so nevermind. work's been kicking my ass lately. i'm so exhausted. and late night television hasnt been any help.

goodnight.

Thu, 27 May 2004 04:01:08 GMT

so i dont know mannn..today was a long day.

apparently the cure and cursive are playing a show together? i don't know if this is true or not. this i might pay for. but maybe not.

i had important things to say but they escape me.

tomorrows my dads birthday. i think. it actually could have been today but i always confuse it. and it might be the day after tomorrow too. he asked for pans...i didnt buy them because hes in iowa. and i am not sending something so heavy in the mail. especially because i was supposed to include the battle axe that i bought him for christmas in the package. that would have cost me more money than i am prepared to dish out..and im pretty sure somebody somewhere will have a problem with sending the battle axe through mail. im not sure though.

he was supposed to send this check for tuition (mind you, he and my mother never came to any formal agreement regarding child support, so his only responsibility was to chip in once in a while.) he said he sent it like last monday or something. or 2 mondays ago. but hes been avoiding both of our calls. which is not ok with me. and i would ignore it usually and let my mom go on about what a dick he is for a couple days and forget about it..but that money was going to actually go to me as a loan for the brokers fee i had to pay for this apartment. and its not like either my mom or i need the money...its just fucked up that hes got money to spend on his backstabbing whore of a girlfriend (probably wife by now because shes a conniving bitch) and not his daughter. hm. thats intersting.

im rambling.

ive got to take this test for work now that i never completed. and another test that i actually failed..but that test has all the markings on it so i dont know HOW they think im going to retake it without giving me another copy.

whatever. now im aggravated.

grammar nazi, eh?

Tue, 25 May 2004 21:04:58 GMT

You are the grammar Fuhrer. All bow to your
authority. You will crush all the inferior
people under the soles of your jackboots, and
any who question your motives will be
eliminated. Your punishment is being the bane
of every other person's existence, because
you're constantly contradicting stupidity.
Everyone will be gunning for you. Your dreams
of a master race of spellers and grammarians
frighten the masses. You must always watch your
back. If only your power could be used for good
instead of evil.

What is your grammar aptitude?
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this reminds me of when people were doing that grammar x core thing back in the day. i remember how silly that was. don't bother spelling/punctuating things correctly if youre going to purposely point out how great it is that you spelled it that way. youre EXPECTED to do that.

continuing..

this week is going to be really terrible. i worked all last weekend plus the following monday of this week. today i drove out to NJ where i am now so i can begin/finish packing my things. tomorrow i will be carrying all of these things downstairs, outside and into Johns truck. Thursday i will wake up at a rediculously early hour which has not yet been revealed to me and drive out to Flushing, Queens to accompany my mom on her doctors appointment. then we will continue our journey to long island, stopping in Melville to drop off all my things at the apartment. It is at this point that i will change into my work close and GO BACK TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then friday off.

THEN MORE WORK!!!!!!!!!

who is rich? who is very wealthy and wouldnt be offended if i asked them to pay my way for the rest of my life? cause i think im ok with that.

ok i think the bigger dog is eating the little dog. gotta go. bye bye.

Mon, 17 May 2004 16:36:50 GMT

a little hung over. maybe a lot hung over. its uh 12:34 in the pm and i guess ill be leaving soon. no work for a week nukah im so happy. i can get so many things done now. like clean out my car.

tonight at 7 we close on the apartment. afterwards anthony and i are going to be driving out to nj to help pack some of my things and watch the pups.

good news.

Mon, 17 May 2004 03:40:53 GMT

so i got an apartment. a really sweet one. in melville.

it was between two..the first of which was the left side of a house, which was good because its neither above or below anybody, and there is plenty of sunshine..but it was 950.

the second one was fucking HUGE for 900. and it had a working fireplace. and a full kitchen. a decent bathroom. and was just plain awesome. with really cool and funny italian landlords. so we took the shit. and tomorrow were going to pay them their security deposit and sign all the shit we need to sign. moving day is july 1st.

other than that everythings pretty normal. OH except i got a new puppy. named melissa. a shih tzu. but bailey the dog isnt getting along with her very well so i have to drive out there tomorrow after closing to watch them.

anyway im at brittanys now, she and her brother just arrived back with our booze so now i must celebrate.

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